
Sometimes, since I ditched my job, and apartment, and conventional aspects of life, really, people ask me “how are you”, in a head tilted way that asks, really, “how can you possibly be okay”.
And I say “I’m GREAT” which maybe seems like I’m overstating things, putting a brave face on terrible regret.
But really… I am doing great. I feel very happy. Very free.
I’m going to have to make some tough decisions, but that’s cool, I’ve demonstrated to myself that I have options.
And meanwhile, I get out of bed every morning excited about what I’m going to do today. I go to bed feeling like I’ve achieved things, even if not always the most important things (I’m working on that). The worse I feel is overwhelm, and the good kind that says, I can’t do everything so I’m going to have to pick some things and how will I decide.
It is at once liberating and terrifying to feel in control of my own life. To have stopped listening to what I’m told I should want, and what should make me happy and to listen instead to what actually does.
Some people seem to think I’ve run mad, but I’m actually very happy (new blogpost) http://t.co/ySOBMa4ZWG
“@catehstn: Some people seem to think I’ve run mad, but I’m actually very happy (new blogpost) http://t.co/ih49MNyPAu” Love.
Yeah!!!
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